I am 90% certain that with all my trying, training, certificates, networking, diplomas, effort and applications that if I had whiter skin, I would be a senior manager or head of services by now and that is what upsets me.
I love my job in employment and skills and the idea that I am actually helping people work their way out of poverty. It's like the old saying "give someone a fish and he(she) will feed himself (herself) for a day but give him(her) a net and he(she) will feed himself (herself) and the family for a lifetime." That's my motivation for going to my 9-5 day job. I worked in emergency housing, rehousing homeless people into immediately available social rented properties, that to me is so important but the next stage is to prevent this from happening, provide a solution that ends the handouts and ensures people can look after themselves and their families independently.
I am good at my job. Surprisingly, the jobs I could never get as a new Graduate, I have supported new graduates into. The motivation and pep talking that I never got for each rejection I received is what I can offer and what is helping people psych up for the interview and get the job. The success of helping people reach their dreams is my motivation everyday and I love it. I am truly thankful for this.
It is so hard to convince business owners to recruit. I don't know how they wish to run a business, grow and succeed without the support of staff members but convincing them to take on anyone is like a near impossible task. Even to recruit someone into a catering role or bar job seems like jumping through hoops. Surely a day's training will suffice? What's with the screening interview, group interview and 121 interview followed by a week long trial before starting out on probation? It's a job. Give someone a few days to meet staff and find their way and I'm pretty sure they will be fine.
To be honest, today is a struggle to progress as I have been valued at a certain rate and seems that no matter how much effort I put in, it won't budge. Disheartened and disappointed that younger people with less experience, less qualifications and seemingly less enthusiasm are "leapfrogging" over me career wise. I wonder how much my value would increase if I change my name and had white skin? How do I tell the next generation that all this hard work, study and effort has amounted to nothing? What example are we setting the children? Should I quit? No, I have another plan and I will continue to always have a plan until the day someone says "yes!"
Abi the fashion blogger